It was a rough day. When a baby is born at 23 weeks premature, life itself is a miracle. I believe these tiny babes are really living somewhere between here and heaven. Its hard to keep perspective when you see a tiny baby in this state, when you know her mother, when you know more than you should because you have seen it before and you know the odds. When a little tiny babe returns to heaven you try to understand, think of the right thing to say, or not to say, to only hope her mother feels the love and prayers offered in her behalf.
This was what was on my mind when I came home from work today. This is what I saw when I pulled into my drive way. There are moments when you know the spirit is with you and you feel closer to God. I wish I could describe what I felt, but I think maybe this sunset was for a friend, to help her feel closer to her little one, maybe a welcome home.
OH I don't know who is going through this, but it broke my heart. I remember having a miscarriage at even just 11 weeks what loss I felt. I can't imagine being nearly half way and actually delivering. Heartbreaking. At the same time, you are right. These little spirits coming here are so closely tied to heaven, and the veil seems so thin when they are involved, that I think one can't help but feel nearer to God -- even with the sorrow. I remember feeling such mixed feelings of sorrow and also closeness to the spirit -- closer than I'd felt in years. My favorite scripture at the time was one that came to my mind closely after that trauma of the miscarriage. It is somewhere in D and C and says, "All flesh is in mine hands. be still and know that I am God." I knew that he was saying that he was aware of these little spirits and the right times for them to come and the bodies to come to, etc. My thoughts go out to your friend at this time of heartache.
ReplyDeleteRyan's niece delivered at 20 weeks, and the 'baby' is still alive. She is almost 15, but blind, bed ridden, doesn't walk or speak. I know they love this little girl, but I can't help think she was not ment to stay on this earth....still so hard to watch a precious spirit enter the world, then leave again.
ReplyDeleteI lost twins at the end of my fourth month. It's very hard. Our knowledge of life eternal helps to heal the loss of earthly things when we trust that we will hold these little ones again. My heart goes out to your friend.
ReplyDeleteI wish we had beautiful sunsets like that here in Boston. I miss a horizon! What a wonderful reminder that God lives.
Thank you for posting this. It made me cry. I can't imagine why things like that have to happen, but I do know that little babies are gods gift to us, and no matter how long we have them here on this earth, it is a miracle.
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful post! I agree, babies are a miracle from the moment of conception. I will keep a prayer in my heart for your friend and her sweet little one.
ReplyDeleteYour blog post is amazing. So sad that that little baby didn't live - seriously I have tears in my eyes - but I'm glad that you were comforted in your time of need so that you could help that mother. I bet you are a wonderful nurse. You do for so many, what most of us cannot do. Kuddos. :)
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