Slowly finding myself

Well, as the title says, I'm slowly finding myself.  Unwinding if you will.  I read a book!  Not a text!  Awhile ago Peter gave me a Kindle.  I was a bit ungrateful at the time.  You see we had had a discussion a few months earlier discussing the issue of ebooks and how he thought it was such a great thing, and how I really disliked the idea.  I like the feel of a book, pages, a cover to entice you, seeing in on a shelf beckoning you to read it.  Its old fashioned I know, I'm old.  I always wanted a library.  Shelves of books to browse at any given moment.  Something my kids could browse and pull selections from.  I know, I know, its all there online.  NOT the same.  Anyway, so we had this discussion and at the end of it he said how much he would like a kindle, I said how much I really did not want one, and we agreed to disagree.  I was heavy into school and hadn't read a non school book in a year and a half.  It just seemed a waste of money to me.

A few months later on Mother's Day, Peter said he had a surprise.  I opened mother coupons, drawings, and cards from the kids and Peter handed me this gift.  I opened it and it and there it was.  "Oh, thanks" I said.  and immediately got annoyed that he bought it for me after the recalling the conversation we had had.  Maybe I was having a one sided conversation.  Maybe he really wanted it and this was a way to ensure that one was in the house.  When was I going to use it, not for a long time (school remember).  I kinda let my thoughts be obvious.  He stated that he thought I would like it.  Really?  He will push me into things because he likes it and wants me to like it.  Usually they are technology related.  I get enough through him.  I don't need more.  So that annoyed me too.  I can have an opinion and yes it can be different that his.

So classes ended a month ago.  I suddenly had this space in my head.  I picked the thing up.  I irritably asked him how to order a book.  I was not going to read one that was already down loaded.  I pick my own books thank you very much!  I decided to try a new author.  Bought it, downloaded it, (wow, that was easy).  And started reading.  I love to read.  As a teen I would stay up until all hours reading because I had to get to the end of the story.  I read my new book.  I've been carrying my kindle around our whole vacation.  Today, I manned up and ate crow.  I told Peter I was sorry for how I acted, and that I really like my new toy.  He knew I would.  That bothers me just a bit.

So back to finding myself.  I finished the book late last night.  Turned off the light and for the first time in years, felt a little like myself.  I love to read.  I remember this now and I won't forget it.