I love my job, but not today. It was full of new names of diseases I had never heard of. Diseases I need to research so that when I see these babies back for testing I have an idea of what to expect and how to help the parents. Hearing may be one of the minor issues they may be dealing with.
I also had to tell the parents of a 2 week old baby that their baby has hearing loss and will need hearing aids. As I explained the results the mother crumbled into tears before me. It took everything I had to fight back my own until I left for the day. Then I cried all the way home.
That's heart breaking. Kuddos to you for working in an emotionally taxing job like that. I don't know how I would do. :)
ReplyDeleteThat is rough. More and more I find myself crying while doing my job. Today I did it, yesterday I did it, last week I did it. I just decided however, that people are ok with it. I am real, and I hurt for them. So don't feel bad when it gets to you. Life can be hard, and not fair.
ReplyDeleteThats good advice Shara. I did tear up. I agree, I'm not opposed to showing feeling especially when someone else is hurting. I just wish I could change it. I'm glad that you have emotions too. Being a field reporter you see much more than most of us. Then have to act composed on camera. It must take practice.
ReplyDeleteBig hugs! It's a testament to your own compassion and empathy that you feel deeply for the people you help. You're awesome. Your patients are lucky to have someone like you to help them through emotionally difficult medical situations like that.
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