So, negative thinking. Sucks. The negative thought that kept me up most of the night last night was... Not only do they not need you they don't even want you. So when you get kicked to the curb, do you wait there hoping someone comes back? Or do you start walking and take care of your own needs. What happens if they suddenly decide they do need or want you and you have moved on?
See what happened there? That negative thinking plays out over and over. I know that I can't rely on anyone to lean on. Its up to me to climb out of the negative cycle. Usually just expressing it gives me enough of a push upward.
Right now I am teaching a song in Primary that moves me. I find myself singing it often and it helps me remember that I am not alone. It seems to help me get back to basics.
davidkat99 Made this for his daughters. Its exactly what I hear and picture in my head when I think of this song.
I know Heavenly Father Loves Me
Whenever I hear the song of a bird
Or look at the blue blue sky
Whenever I feel the rain on my face
Or the wind as it rushes by
Whenever I touch a velvet rose
Or walk by a lilac tree
I'm glad that I live in this beautiful world
Heavenly Father created for me.
He gave me my eyes that I might see
The color of butterfly wings
He gave me my ears that I might hear
The magical sound of things
He gave me my life, my mind, my heart
I thank him reverently
For all his creations of which I'm a part
Yes, I know Heavenly Father loves me
Clara McMaster
i know about the negativity spiral. good clawing your way out. i love that primary song.
ReplyDeleteMaybe there's something in the water, or maybe I'm having a midlife crisis, but I feel ya sister. Man, do I feel ya.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful video. Thanks for sharing. I've been on a sort of a negative kick lately as well. Good reminder.
ReplyDeleteThis is my absolute favorite primary song. My babies know the words by heart, and I even had my college students sing it at the beginning of class at BYU-Idaho. You're so right that negative thinking sucks. I honestly think negative thinking comes right along with wintertime--gray, cold, low activity, low light. Blah. I sure hope things look up for you soon, lady. You're an inspiration to me!
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry I'm behind in reading this...and hope the feeling has moved on...But do I ever understand what you're talking about my friend. And have only learned that you better be doing the crap stuff because you feel compelled to do so of your own accord - because very rarely does handling the crap stuff come back in our favor. But it is one of the bricks of integrity, which you have always had, and that is a rare trait these days. Our faith is repeatedly what will always be the driving, and sustaining force.
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